Monday, June 14, 2004

sparrow.....i know its been a long time since i updated, but sooo much has been going on. the queen has been busy. my job sucks donkey's nuts. the people that work there suck too. they are racist as hell...the type of people that are racist but they try everything in their power to hide that shit because they are at work. i see right through their asses. i have a funny feeling that before the month is over, somebody is going to receive a verbal lashing from me. i’m really not happy there. i’m on my feet for 9 hours a day, making and packing speakers. it sucks for real. i got my first check last friday and most of it is gone. damn shame but its true. i had to buy groceries because there wasnt any damn food up in this bitch. ty took me to the store and we tripped the whole time. this man was flirting hard as hell. ty said he was looking down my shirt. i had on a low cut shirt and my melons were looking right so i guess thats why. this mofo followed us down 3 isles because i was in the cookie isle looking for my niece some cookies. this bama tried to have a convo about cookies. smh. ty was leaning on the cart laughing....wit her bama ass. she said he winked at me a couple of times....*gaggin*. next...i went to the club on saturday. yo...i pay $7 to sit and laugh at the rhythmless people dancing. all i do is sit at the bar or on the stage and laugh. i may dance a little, but they play techno music so i cant do too much. shit, if i cant clap my booty to it, im not moved. *joke* i saw chay in the club. i was dancing and i felt somebody slap my thigh. i turned around like wtf cuz somebody was about to get cussed out. ty pointed to the left cuz chay had already walked off. she told me that she has a crush on me and has had a crush on me for a while. when she told me i was like................where the fuck was i when you had a crush on me? im on the short bus sometimes. if a mofo doesnt tell me that they like me, i dont assume shit. anyway, me and woo just broke up about 3 weeks ago. im single and not looking. plus, i wouldnt mess up our friendship like that. i value our friendship a lot. i cant go from looking at her like my big brova to my girl. that wouldnt work. next...back to me and woo breaking up. yes ladies and gents, we broke up. a lot has happened in the past year that built up to this.....a lot of tears, anger, arguments, and hurt feelings. i still love her but im not in love with her. she hurt me a lot in the past year and before we think about getting back together, i need to see if i can get past the hurt. its like im sitting at a stop sign in park. i need to decide if i should move forward or turn left or right. and like forrest gump says....thats all i have to say about that.will we get back together??? maybe. i dont know but i do know that if we do, it wont be anytime soon. i need time to see what i want and where i want to be. aight, thats enough for one damn day. leave a comment and let me know whats on your mind. in a minute....peace.....cream......out.