on the road again.........i go home today. my brother and his friend are picking me up. usually i would be excited to go home but i have a paper to write once i get there. every morning when i get up, im going to work on it. when i finally finish that paper i am going to reward myself with a bottle of coconut rum. other than write my paper, i plan on chillin with my mom, taking some pictures, and doing a little shopping. da kid is in desperate need of clothes. i have a bunch of dress clothes for work but i dont have any casual clothes. it sucks. i want to dress more ladylike without being prissy. anyway, i am anxious to see my niece. that is my little munchkin. she is so damn smart. i dont want to see anyone i graduated with or i associated with when i was in high school. i dont like talking to them....you werent all friendly and shit in high school and the only reason why you are talking to me is because you are a nosey muhfucca so save me and you some time and dont speak to me at all. keep it movin. next.....work. i walked to work this morning and walked home this afternoon. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. it was a 15 minute walk. i needed the walk...it gave me some time to think. im gettin a tad bit irritated with my job. it is one of the most unorganized businesses i have ever seen before. the schedule changes every day it seems like. they still have me down for the wrong damn hours after i have changed it twice. so, i say fuck it, ill come in at the time i said i would and i dare a mofo to say something. i have to check 4 or 5 times to make sure my time off request was seen and approved. damn shame yo. i was looking around yesterday....there isnt a black supervisor in my department. hmmm. i really dont feel like i will be there for too much longer. i enjoy the job but the work environment is fucked up. sometimes, i get tired of getting screamed at or people saying they want to speak to my supervisor and the supervisor tells them the same thing that i told them...dumbasses. last night, a lady called that was friggin nutty. she was screaming at me because she was charged 9.95 and she cancelled her internet service....i had to turn the volume down on the phone and i asked her to stop yelling at me. she got this sarcastic tone with her....yo....i wish i could have cursed her out. i would have said "bitch, calm ya nerves so i can help your ass....yellin at me like you are insane is not going to help me help you...yelling at me will only make me put you on hold and so you can listen to the elevator music until the cows come home." i kept her on hold for about 10 minutes....i went to pee, washed my hands, got some water, and then came back to my phone. i know i know...that was mean but damn, she was an evil bitch. today, a man started cursing at me. i put him on mute and laughed for about 2 minutes. he accepted a free month of the service and didnt call back before his next billing date so he got billed. ok...ima tell yall some good shit. for all the dial up folks, when you call to cancel and they offer you free months...cancel the fuckin account if you really dont want it. if you dont call back by the next billing date (after the free month/s), you will be billed again. the account is still open when you accept those free months. its fucked up, but true. aint nothing damn free so save yourself some time and cancel the service. *gettin off of my soapbox* next...i finally told her how i felt this summer. well, its not like i didnt tell her...i just didnt tell her the whole thing. i mean, this summer was a hell of an experience. i learned a lot about myself and a lot about her. i cried when i told her because i have held it in for so damn long. she said she didnt know that she hurt me so much. im not going to get into details about the situation but i will say that she hurt me this summer.....she seriously hurt me. i would have liked to sit down and tell her how i felt face to face but we are a million miles away it seems like. i want to see her again but my money isnt looking right at all. she isnt going to come see me and my money is funny so i dont know when the next time i will see her. i hope its soon because a visit is long overdue. aight, thats enough for now. in a minute.....peace, chitlins, and greens.....cream da southern gul....out.