i'm in a real quiet mood. i really have more to write than to say. last night, i laid in my bed and thought about my life, the people in it, and what direction its going. my mother almost left this earth last week. that experience has had a huge effect on me. lately, ive been very reserved regarding my feelings. guess it was easier to just go with the flow and to rock the boat. i had problems (what i thought were problems) already and i didnt want to create more. ive realized that all the shit i was stressin about didnt fuckin matter.