i know its been a long time....entries seen to come less and less frequent nowadays. so much has changed. some things i want to talk about and most of it, i dont. ive been writing in my journal and have neglected my blog. anyway, im here now. a new year is approaching and im so friggin excited. 2007 is gonna kick 2006's ass. not that 2006 was horrible. ive just gone through a lot of changes....learned a lot, cried even more, i got extremely schoolsick, made a decent amount of money, blah blah blah. in 2007, i only have 1 resolution and that is to become better....have more, do more, be more, live more, laugh more than i did in 2006. most high willing i see it, ill be 26 on 1/15/07. im officially grown. no more excuses for me not doing what i need to do for myself. playtime is over. the future is now. next....me and ms dubb's friday night at macados routine has been going on for about 2 months now. i get tipsy every friday. its funny now, i think my body has built up a tolerance for bong waters. chay drinks 2 everytime we go out. i dont know how she still gets tipsy. im glad we go out, even if it is to drink. i need to get outta the house and go somewhere other than shopping or to work. its an expensive routine tho. on average, i spend at least $20.00 every friday. $80.00 a month. thats rather expensive. thats a pair of heels or an outfit. so, yesterday i bought my own alcohol and spent $30.00. i got blue curacao, vodka, and puerto rican rum. me and friskins drank 2 shooters called tiddy water. **they shoulda never gave me a bartender's book** tiddy water consists of vodka, rum, and blue curacao. the recipe said to put 2 raisins in the bottom but raisins are disgusting. it really does look like toilet water tho. after we drank our shots, we both drank a gremlin. a gremlin consists of 1 1/2 ounces of vodka, 3/4 oz of blue curacao, 3/4 oz of rum, and orange juice. we were both really tipsy. i wouldnt say drunk because we both were still walking around and weren't stumblin but umm...yeah....we were seeing spaceships over roanoke. i cant wait for new years because its probably gonna be worse. damn shame. yo....this new restaurant opened up called "zaxby's" here and im addicted. the best chicken tenders ive ever had. i dont know how im gonna lose weight when i love their spicy fried mushrooms and chicken tenders with honey mustard. its soooooooo good. im droolin just thinkin about it. me and friskins are going to get a platter for new years so we can put something on our stomachs in preparation for all the alcohol we will consume. if i call u on new years and say something weird, im drunk. hmmmmkay? next....ive changed my views when it comes to love and relationships. im still open. that hasnt changed. my legs arent going to be tho. ive decided to be celibate until i meet my neo. it shouldnt be hard at all since there isnt anyone around here that im interested in. nothing but losers, drug heads, crazies, and the confused around here. im like a swan in a sea of mud ducks. im also gonna make myself wait at least 3 months before i will be intimate after meeting someone that could possibly be neo. if its indeed true, 3 months without sex wont be a problem with her. quite frankly, i know im sittin on some superior, spectacular, superb, wonderfulness so its definitely worth the wait. plus yo...my brain is just awesome. i have a helluva personality too. i am the shit, if i say so myself. and im not the only one who thinks that. i just have to work on feeling that way all the time. i know everybody has their down days but im workin on having more up days than down days. i want to be able to look in the mirror and see whats positive and not just the negative. being a big girl in a skinny girl's world sucks occasionally but regardless, i make this look good. you will take a second look and so will your mate. hehe. aight, thats enough for now. i need to get back to work. in a minute....peace and love for self.....prolific out.