focused.....i havent updated in like 38291 years. well, its not that bad but dang, its been a while. now that i know how to utilize the e-mail to your blog thing, i should be ok. all of the things i want to write about seem to come to me when im at work or about to doze off. im still studying zen, just not as much as i was. im just taking everything one day at a time and every day i learn something new. ive been thinking about my experiences when i was a young college student with nothing on her mind but school. if i could go back and do it all over again, i would. i loved college as much as i complained about it. i know i would do a lot better tho. thats why im so determined to go to grad school. i want to keep going. hell, if the most high allows me to live to be a great grandma, i might have 4 bachelors degrees and 3 masters degrees. i plan to go to school forever. you can never know too much, in my opinion. im faced with the issue of, should i have a child first or should i get my master's first. i know if i get my master's first, i wont have a child until im at least 28. i dont want to be all old trying to fun after a toddler. if i have a child first, it might not get my master's degree until im 40. i was thinking, why cant i do both? it would probably be entirely too hard. *sigh* so much to do in so little time. my business ventures arent lookin too good. mainly because i havent done a lot of work. everything is still in its beginning stages. my business partner is about to go to film school so she probably wont have a lot of time to devote to the business. my plan is to mail her an introductory package full of stuff i have made and she can sell it and i can tell if its going to do well or not. i know it is tho. i have that much faith in my product. as far as the t-shirt thing, thats going to have to wait a while. i have an idea for a side hustle. im not going to write too much about it because someone might take my idea. all im going to say is, photography on another level. i plan to be very financially comfortable by the time im 30. not rich, but comfortable. not living paycheck to paycheck. being able to take a real vacation. i have to remain focused. next....i have to have surgery on my mouth tomorrow. well, on my teeth. all i know is, i had to wait 4 months...probably longer than that...to have this shit done to half of my mouth. dont you know its going to cost about $400 for half of my mouth? thats before insurance kicks in. ill probably have to pay about $100 out of pocket. *sigh* i planned to take my dog to the vet to get some shots and a checkup but he just might have to wait. in a way, im scared. ive never had a needle in my mouth. hell, i have never had a cavity. ill be aight...ima champ. aight...thats enough for now. in a minute....peace and love....prolific out.