its a celebration bitches.......ya like the new layout??? it took me a minute to change up but it happened....finally. i wasnt really feeling the last one....it was too...i dont know. anyway, life has been cool. my valentine's day was a bit lonely, but i was used to it. its not like i have been with (physically) anybody on valentine's day in a longgggg time. i chilled in my room, drank some paul masson, and watched tv. woo sent me flowers and a naughty kit that smelled sooo damn good. im going to save the body dust and the kissing oil for our next visit. *thinking naughty thoughts* next....i cut 2 inches of my hair last night. it felt really good. thats 2 inches closer to the naps. i have about an inch and a half of new growth. i keep seein pics of womyn with nice fros and its making me wish my hair would hurry up and grow 5 or 6 inches. everything comes in its time so ill be waiting. i cant seem to do anything with it tho. its been in a ponytail for friggin ever. i tried twisting it and then rolling it with perm rods and the result was horrible, to say the least. i have to find something to do to it before i start cutting it some more. next...i sent woo a big box of candy for valentine's day. i really didnt know what to get her at first but then i thought about it....that womyn loves candy. she has a sweet tooth from hell. its messed up that she is a diabetic cuz she loves sweets. i filled the box with her favorite candy and she should get it on tuesday. i also sent myf amily a box. i sent gooty a care bear, 2 coloring books, and some gummy bears. i sent my mother and my brother cds and some other crap. i just wanted my niece to have that damn bear. i love her like she is my child. speaking of children, the topic keeps coming up about me having children. sometimes i can picture myself with a couple of kids and sometimes i cant. i dont have a lot of patience and i know that if i have a child, i will definitely need patience. then, more than likely, i would be living the life of a single parent. i know woo would be involved but she has 2 children of her own. the child's father would have some role in the child's life....but the way men are nowadays, i dont know. its not like me and him would be "together" in any way except for the benefit of the child. i have had someone tell me that he would impregnate me but im not sure how that whole situation would go. its a longggg way down the road so i really shouldnt be putting so much thought into it right now. the thoughts just seem to cross my mind every now and then....especially when i see my niece. next....i forgot to mention that i saw my father when i was waiting for my train in dc. i called him...not expecting him to come....and he came. shocked the hell out of me. anyway, he wanted me to go to his girlfriend's house with him.....i said no. its not like i didnt want to be around him...i just didnt feel comfortable leaving the train station with him. we sat and talked about everything under the sun. the more i looked at him, the more i saw me and my brother. i have his nose and his ears. i even have some of his mannerisms.....we both bite our bottom lip when we are thinking....just to name one. my brother has his eyes, the way his face is shaped, and the same build. i enjoyed sitting and talking to him and when he was about to leave me, he hugged me, and he had tears in his eyes. i was like.....damn. i guess seeing me grown up made him feel some kinda way. i didnt cry...actually, it was easy to say goodbye. speaking of goodbyes....i didnt get to kiss my baby goodbye. as soon as she helped me get my suitcase on the train, it started moving. she had to literally jump out of the train on some stunt shit. so, i didnt get to kiss her goodbye, hug her goodbye, nothing. i cried myself to sleep on the train after we got off the phone. when she came here in november, i cried myself to sleep when she left me. its funny how i can say goodbye to my father with ease, but when it comes to woo......its really painful. like i said, i have never loved someone so strongly in my life. anyway....damn this is a long ass post. im takin my ass to sleep....i got 4 classes tomorrow. oh yeah....if you didnt see last wednesday's episode of dave chapelle when he was impersonating rick james.....you need to find it and watch it. its the funniest episode i have seen. aight now.....in a minute....peace......im cream.....bitch....out.