sabbatical.....damn. in front of my computer at 4 am knowing that i have to go to work. at least i dont have to be there until 3. i just got off the phone with the ex and im a little angry. nah, scratch that. im fuckin HOT. i dont know what it is about her that makes me want to reach out and lay hands on her and im not talkin about tender touches either. im talkin bout kimbo slice punches to the throat. we have gotten into a disagreement about something almost every time we have talked since i broke up with her. im so angry right now i have tears in my eyes. i guess the reality of the past 2 years have finally slapped the shit outta me. i was a damn fool for following my heart instead of listening to what my mind kept screamin. 2 years later, 3902902390 tears later, 2 trips later, 28294494 phone calls later, im in no better position (relationship wise) than i was when i met her. hate is such a strong word so i wont say that i hate her. she just isnt one of my favorite people right now. i hope all the bad things in the world happen to her and only her so she could feel a fraction of the humiliation, disappointment, and pain that i feel. karma is an evil bitch. sometimes i wonder what the hell i did to deserve this shit. whatever it was, im entitled to some reparations because karma tapped my ass too many times. its like that bitch is stuck on me. she needs to move the fuck on to the ex. hurr up too. shat. i need to get outta my feelings and attempt to go to sleep. in a minute....peace and love....prolific out.