public enemy....i know its been a long time. really, i have no excuse. i just havent felt like writing. i havent felt like putting myself out there like i used to. maybe my reluctance to blog has hurt me because since i stopped writing on the regular, ive gone through a lot of stress. so, im back. maybe writing is really what keeps me sane. i havent been doing much besides working. speaking of my job, before yesterday, i had grown to enjoy it a lil bit. i pretended to enjoy myself and not take it so damn seriously. well, yesterday, my brother and his girlfriend got arrested. the way they were treated, unjustly is putting it mildly, has tainted my views of my workplace. i deal with people complaining about being treated unfairly by the police and before yesterday, i was unbiased. now, i believe they treat people unfairly and take advantage of poor people that dont know the law. the police officers that greet me and talk to me every damn day treated me and my family like we were less than human. for the past week, ive heard about young black people being handcuffed and laid out in the middle of streets for routine traffic stops. well, routine by their standards. i say they are targeted because of their race and the neighborhoods they were driving in. its a shame. morally, i cant represent a place that i believe treats people, not just my own people, but anyone, unfairly. now, i know that not everyone was innocent but i can guarantee that the stops, the searches, etc were not all legal. i have to find another job asap. im not an uncle tom or a coon...sure it pays my bills but it also taxes my morality. next...im still single. it doesnt surprise me. i am very selective...even more than i was before my last relationship. i havent met anyone who has moved me yet. my neo will come when the most high sees fit. until then, im enjoying the single life. it gets lonely sometimes. especially at night when i want to cuddle and go to sleep. oh well, my neo soon come. next...i think im losing weight. my appetite has decreased. maybe its because of the warm weather. in the summer, i dont eat half as much as i do in the winter. its too damn hot to be eating heavy. ive been cooking a lot more than i have in my entire life. i enjoy cooking. i blame the food network for sparking my interest..lol. bobby flay is my hero. ok, i gotta clean up so i can chill the rest of the day. in a minute, i promise....peace and morality....prolific out.