haiku's gone wild

i cant be your girl
my needs and your life dont meet
fuck you in advance.



im not what you need
my maintenance is too high
like clouds in the sky.



love's overrated
my heart has been bruised so much
it feels like its numb.




stepped away from fear
into possibility
im falling in love

london bridges.....im bangin this damn fergie song and shakin my ass....be afraid, be very afraid. i dont know why im diggin this mindless shit. maybe its the beat. ive been blastin my music all day. ive had a lot on my mind and the music has eased the tension a lil bit. have you ever been like...."you know what...enough is enough. i refuse to accept any bullshit from anybody anymore." i said that to myself when i woke up this morning. im tired of people taking my new found niceness for weakness. when i finally decide to open up...hold that thought. my playlist is on random from songs my friends have sent me for the past 6 months. why in the hell does urban mystic have a song called "fuck song". smh...can u please be more creative with your title dammit? if annnnn broad played this song for me trying to set the mood, i would promptly leave the premises. thanks for the effort, fuck you, urban mystic, and that fuck song, good night. *back to your irregularly schedule prolific programming" when i finally decide to open up, be nice, a lil more social, people do shit to make me go back into my batcave. im on ice once again ladies and gents. peeps gon start calling me subzero in this bitch. me and a friend of mine were talking about how weird my feelings flow. i can love you one day and you do something and ill act like you never existed the next. love or no love yo...i have to protect my feelings. my tolerance for bullshit is at an alltime low so if you are on some bullshit....do yaself a favor and vamoose. yall can kiss my asshole. *vulgar as hell, i know* next....still looking for a new job. my job aint horrible but i know that i can do better. much better. im enrolling in a master's program this spring. i need some more money in my life. i like shopping to much. shopping is like.....*sigh* aight, me and fabuloso have a date in the bathroom and the kitchen. in a minute.....peace and right effort....prolific out.

if you cant have the one you love....then where are u going in your life?......im lost.

freewriting part 2893092903.....its been a long time but right now...at this very moment....i feel a sense of extreme happiness. almost feels like im dreaming. i got a lil money left over after i paid my bills. no work this weekend. someone posted 2 of joi's cds so i could download them since i was having a hard time trying to purchase them (yeah, ill buy joi's cd because i know its good). i just finished eating the best steak i had in a while...so tender i didnt even need a knife...and to top it off, it didnt give me a headache. my life is pretty damn cool right now. sure, i could complain...but why? the good outweighs the bad so im enjoying the good and disregarding the bad. i got the urge to write, which hasnt happened in a while. i have had this big burst of emotion come over me and its producing soooo many positive things in my life. ambition has tapped me on my shoulder and words have asked me to dance. there is no way i could possibly express everything im feeling right now...but know that im aight. i had a long conversation with my best friend in the whole wide world (artiste you need to hurry up and get another blog, i miss your words) and now i have a sense of direction. i decided a long time ago that if i continued on the path i was travelling, i would die. physically eventually, mentally as soon as i let myself go. in all honesty, i let myself go...go into a place that i will never go again....stagnancy. im responsible for me and my happiness from this point until my very last second on this earth. that being said, im washing my hands of a couple of people i have allowed in my space that are just taking up space....offering nothing but negativity. i dont have time for the bullshit, i gotta lot of living to do homie. a lot of shit i gotta get done. in a minute....peace and LOVING YO SELF.....prolific out.