happy 25th birthday to meeeeeeeee!!!!!!

my womyn was here last week. one morning, i got up before she did. i sat up and admired her. she looks like a kid when she sleeps.....like a little indian girl.....copper toned with dark, curly hair, and the longest black eyelashes....she looks like bambi when she blinks. her smile will light up any room...the type of smile that will make your day better even when it has been shitty. lmao....when she sleeps, she snores and i can still see the dimple in her right cheek. when i call her name...even when she is sleep...she smiles. i appreciate her, even tho she gets on my damn nerves sometimes. i know she loves me....there is no doubt in my mind. all the shit she puts up with....my moods and my chronic asshole-ism...it has to be love. the little things she does shows me that our relationship, our love for each other...is so much more than the shit im used to. in the past, i have had some simple ass relationships....never 50/50.....always 75/25, if that. im the type of womyn that if i love you...if i care about you, i show it. i live and love in verbs. fuck words. ill cook sunday dinners for you everyday, wash your clothes...even wash ya ass if you are hurt or tired as hell, rub your feet.....anything to show how much i love you and appreciate your presence in my life. needless to say, i showed some smelly bitches some beautiful shit but ive only been shown bullshit. i decided that i was gonna fall back a little bit in my next relationship to see what would happen. i havent been disappointed. i had to work this week so she had to stay here with my fam while i was at work. she washed my clothes, cleaned my room, fixed me lunch and dinner.....*sigh* she was my lil housewife for a couple of days. i can be a real meany pants sometimes. anyway, we have been through so much in the past 2 weeks....this trip was needed. when she left, i got teary eyed as always but im getting used to seeing her go. most high willing, ill see her next month.

i had this weekend off and i got not a gatdamn thing accomplished. well, yes i did. i washed my linen and got my sleep caught up. being with my womyn for 4 days made me lose sleep....hehe. that was my first weekend off in 3 weeks. damn shame. i finally get paid on wednesday but i know my check is gonna be gone. bills bills bills. mayn, i really dont want to go to work but i dont want to be here either. i want to be some where i can feel a warm breeze and sip a glass of shiraz. im planning a vacation sometime in march. im going to start saving now......even if we dont go anywhere but west va or charlotte....as long as me and my womyn are together, alone, i dont care. hell, we could go down the fuggin street to a hotel, just to be alone with her and not have to work would be cool with me. *sigh* finna go to work. peace and livin in verbs.....cream out