whoaaaaa.....damn yo...where should i start. the beginning would be nice...huh. i have been in connecticut for almost 2 weeks now. its cool...so far. woo's comp is fucked up....not my fault tho. we have been through so much....her daughter was in the hospital for 2 days, we are gettin used to each other, i am gettin used to havin kids around all the time....just a lot of stuff yo. i am in love yo...but this is the hardest relationship i have been in. its effortless to love her....it just takes a lot of effort to maintain us. i require attention..especially since its not everyday i get to hold my girl or rub her face while she talks to me....i value every minute that we spend together because i know that 6 weeks isnt a long time...i am going back to va...that altima is goin to ride down my street without me in it...i wont hear her snorin or hear her get up at 2 am to eat....i feel like a part of me is with her...like she is my left foot...she compliments what i already have...she allows me to strut. are my feelings dangerous??? probably. who knows....we could break up an hour from now, a minute from now. nothin is certain except for change and death....all i know is i am in love and regardless of how many times she falls asleep on me, pisses me off, *cough*gets on my damn nerves *cough*....i am in love with her yella ass and she is who i want to grow old with. today, it was confirmed that we arent gettin married in june. too soon...(go ahead and say told ya so)...plus we dont have any money. i really dont know how to feel about the situation... *catch those feelings in the next post* next...i went to ny yesterday (the bronx and harlem)....it was ok...not what i thought. enjoyed the ride there tho. new haven was so much more exciting...i saw a crackhead beat a man out of $140, 2 girls fighting, 2 men get arrested, woo cuss out a jamaican man *suck ya mudda*.....it was like watchin tv. all that excitment yesterday has me tired....enough for now...i need a nap. peace...........cream out.

part deux......yo.....contrary to the popular belief, cream is shy. i know i have said it before. i am shy as hell yo....not much of a talker...i communicate best through writing. which is why i am writing this. i am in connecticut with woo....first day...and i am nervous as shit. i am not much of a talker and i dont want peeps to think i am stuck up or i am anti-social...even tho the later is the truth. this is all new for me and yo....this is my me time....my time to get my thoughts together. aight...not only am i visiting my girl for the first time...i am meeting her fam as well. i have never stayed with anyone outside of my fam.....and to top it off....i am 8 hours away. its a lot to take in at one time. woo is too tired and too occupied to notice but i am feelin some kind of way right now....i have a mixture of nervousness and fear....messed up combination yo. i know in time, this feeling will go away...i hope it leaves soon. she made some baked ziti.....maybe i will feel betta after i eat....when i am have things on my mind i tend not to have an appetite. next....i talked to my mother this afternoon. i missed some drama....praise the most high. something always happens when i leave....lucky me. i miss my fam a little bit....they get on my last good nerve and i cant spend more than a week with them without gettin frustrated, irritated, or down right pissed off.....but i luh they asses. aight...thats enough ventin...i gotta fix woo's comp...think i fucked somethin up. lata....creamy puffalicious angel.....out.

baisse moi.....its been a minute...i know. well, i went home and put my computer in my closet.....i was only home for a week anyway. no sense in hookin it all up and then packin it all back up again. anywhoo, my week at home was cool. my mom's boyfriend didnt get on my nerves too much. the only thing he did to really piss me off was eat all of the caramel cake...da kid didnt get one damn slice. my niece is gettin so damn big yo. im startin to corrupt her mind already. i taught her to say "shut up". *evil laugh* nah, thats the only bad thing ill teach her. dont want her bein a damn heathen. next...did decent this semester...got a D in law tho. shit...all the exams were true/false....i would have preferred essay based tests instead of that shit. oh well....i got an A, 2 B's, a C, and a D. as long as im passin....i dont give a fat monkeys ass. ima try to make the deans list for the rest of my college career tho. i know i can do it....its just applying myself. i made the deans list my first 2 years of college. next...woo came and got me yesterday...she was 2 hours late. i was worried...pacin the living room...yo..i watched at least 6 episodes of the cosby show while i was waitin on her. then finally she called and said she was down the street. it felt soooo good to be held yo. it had been so long. she laid on my boobies and i laid my head on her locs and we slept...a little. theres that evil laugh again..heheheh next...the ride to connecticut was.....long. we were actin silly as normal so that made the time go by fast. woo tried to freeze me to damn death.....i might have a bug....woke up snifflin. we got here at 5 am....i put down my bags, took off my pants, and went to sleep. i woke up and forgot were i was...i was lookin around like where...in...the...hell...am...i? woo woke me up at 9...*sigh*...we engaged in some "activities" damn.....good mornin bay.......now im wide awake and she is knocked the fuck out. im talkin bout snorin and errthang. i am a little salty cuz i am sittin here....doin nothin....hungry as a weedhead that smoked a quarter of highgrade....i feel icky....but i know she has gotten at the most, 8 hours of sleep in the last 2 days....so maybe i shouldnt be too salty...she still is gon hear it when she gets up...shit. well...this shit is hella long...sooooo...miss cream....dat chic in ya wet dreams....is....out.

2 days and a wake up.....takin a study break...listenin to this had some shit on my mind.....decided to write. i am not goin to be able to go to quinnipiac because they will not accept my financial aid simply because i do not attend their school. i was hurt at first...got mad as hell...then decided....it aint so bad. ill just go to plan b....stackin my money. cream always has a plan b...sometimes a plan c. i have a big plan in my head yo...i have been thinkin on it for a long time. i finally decided to act on it. but first....i got to get my money right and i have to absorb every damn ounce of free education i can online. that prolly doesnt make sense now....but when i do da damn thing, it will. plus, me not goin to school will allow me to spend more time with my girl.....it will allow my brain some time to chill. next....finals.....what can i say? bullshit, thats what i am gonna say. i have a 8 page essay, a take home exam, and a bunch of cases to brief.....all in 2 days. my big day is thursday. i have to pack thursday night....then friday morning....im out. next....i am so tired of this....im gonna be on here from now on. conversation is a little more mature. aight...back to work. peace....cream out.

ill take yo cookies......for the past 3 days....i havent been in my room much. people have been callin...leavin evil messages. "where are youuuuuuuuu????" *smh* well, get used to me not bein here cuz ummm.....i have exams all week and then im goin back to my momma's house on friday. am i excited...yeah, kinda. i need a change of environment but then again i am going into an environment that i really dont want to be in. a week sharing the same living space as my mom's boyfriend who i really strongly dislike....lawd. on a brighter note.....2 weeks and i will be in new haven. i am nervous about that. im going to be in her space...never been in any of my exes space....they all came to me. this time, im leavin my comfort zone and entering hers. i havent seen my girl in 2 months. i cant wait to just chill with her...play with her locs....its goin to be so nice to look down and see her asleep with her head on my boobies. i have to make sure everything is cool for summer school....im going to have 3 weeks of vacation before i go to summer school. that is so damn dandy. i need a break. next....went to the riverfront and took pics. i walked on this pier...i was scared as hell yo. it was real shaky and diallo's dumb ass kept jumpin. then he said to walk in the middle of the damn thing cuz i guess thats where a big steel beam was. where does it matter where i walk...if it fell, we both would be in the damn nasty ass river. the ohio river is so damn dirty yo...its a ugly green color. there was a man fishin...i personally would not eat nothin that lived in that water. i wouldnt even stick my feet in it. next....i got my tatts darkened...it didnt hurt at all...but now, they itch like hell. i feel like i have about 10 mosquito bites on my arm and my back. i dont remember tatts itchin this much...gettin them aint the bad part...its waitin for them to heal that is hell. when i get to connecticut i want to get another tattoo and get pierced. i dyed my hair champagne blonde...how does it look you ask??? it looks the damn same. my hair is a trip yo. it does not take dyes well. its about 1 shade lighter. so...next month, ima try again. i want to have blonde hair with fire red tips. aight...this bedtime lotion has me yawnin...so ill holla lata. peace....creamthatcantbewhipped....out.